Happy birthday 11/11, woke up and wiped the tears and cream out my eyes and thank Allah for another
Happy birthday 11/11, woke up and wiped the tears and cream out my eyes and thank Allah for another year to revolve and evolve into something greater than what I’ve been currently living. Dear Life, I’m Thankful and blessed to see another year. You’ve learned the buttons to hurt me and you stand on it, yet each year you’ve blessed and overwhelmed me with so many things. Life you have taught me so much, given me so much pain, taken so much from me, all while blessing me to see and do things I’ve never envisioned or thought I would be seeing or doing but here we are, thank you. Yet I still question if I am built to shoulder this shit even though i know i am, because when you had to get it out the mud, you are built for anything. Yet the older I get the more I hate, yet appreciate that we(I) had to get it out the mud because getting it out the mud has taken so much from us, gave us so little, taught us that surviving to live was normal, gave us mental disorders, we struggle to pin point and trauma we’ve made homes out of, however it’s given us the willpower to overcome anything. Life will teach you that you know nothing until you’ve felt pain, hit rock bottom, lost ones you’ve die for and that chasing happiness comes with a price that most of don’t really want to sacrifice so we fake it and suffer later. So these days i don’t want happiness, happiness comes with highs and lows, ups and downs, i don’t want that for me, i don’t want my life to be some stock market waiting to crash because of whatever isn’t happening or has happened, etc. i don’t want to find happiness because in order to find happiness you have to embrace the middle ground in between happiness and sadness, give and take, so i am good without it!! most people are only happy online through pictures and captions that come from song lyrics and titles or locations but peace comes from wherever, from whomever and that’s something you can’t fake through pictures, song lyrics or titles through captions… #thisisknowledge PS: these KD numbers are going to crazy!! Take care of your mental on this road of yours and love on your people in the process… ❤️ Bizzle… (at Amsterdam, Netherlands) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWI1tF9sBRF/?utm_medium=tumblr -- source link
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