miss-monica-ice: Featured photos taken after I had undergone chemo a mere 8 timesI have sincere lost
miss-monica-ice: Featured photos taken after I had undergone chemo a mere 8 timesI have sincere lost a significant amount of weight- these are the last photos I took where I felt comfortable with my size♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ Hi lovelies! It’s been a little while since I’ve made a post that was this… well, to put it simply, desperate. I’ve done my best to pay for everything myself ever since I got diagnosed with cancer. I somehow felt as though it was my fault for becoming ill because I had it too easy in life, and although I on some level realize that’s not the truth and it’s just my anxiety talking, it’s kept me from reaching out to my friends and fans who I know help me when they’re able to do so. I’m at a point of desperation where if I don’t ask for this help right now then I might not be around much longer. I’ve undergone several clinical trials and I have officially been through 11 rounds rounds of chemotherapy. This certainly has not been cheap by any means. There are two more clinical trials that are being recommended for me, and well the first one didn’t in fact slow the progression of my cancer, it did not eliminate it. All it takes is one or two cancer cells to start multiplying and become a full-blown issue again. I was in remission for less than two weeks before I found out that the one or two cells that they missed the first time started multiplying and I needed to begin chemotherapy again. So I’m undergoing two more clinical trials, and these are going to cost me a little over $400 together. I’m undergoing both of them in the next week, and with any luck my red and white blood cell count will be high enough that I won’t need to pay an additional $80 to get a shot that will raise the levels of my blood cells so that I can continue chemotherapy without it killing me.I have also been forced to pay the bills for my mother who was recently hospitalized for the coronavirus. I am thrilled beyond words that she survived- in fact she was the first survivor of this illness in the state of Arizona who was at deaths door step and managed to make a recovery- that medical bill on top of my own pile of ever growing bills has been painful for me to bear mentally. I’m going to be blunt. I have completely drained all my savings, I owe a loan shark $500, and I’m still looking at about $1700 worth of debt hospital wise. This is actually quite cheap- it was over 13k a few days ago, but I finally managed to get approved for insurance that I filed for well over a year ago- that absolved a lot of my debt. I’m still very scared though, I currently have rent coming up in three days, I have utilities which is somehow 500 fucking dollars and I have basic food requirements that I should probably be more on top of considering the treatment I’m undergoing. I need to keep reminding myself that this is not like the old days when I could just starve myself if I needed to win money was too tight, that will literally kill me. If there’s anything at all you can donate, please, please message me.I’m not just asking for donations though. I also have an onlyfans, which has been helpful, but I don’t get paid from that site for 3 to 5 business days following when the money is sent so that is sometimes an issue when it comes to my more immediate debts. I have a premium Snapchat which is lifetime access with screenshot privileges for a one time payment of $50 and I can accept payment via PayPal, Cashapp, Venmo or Google pay at this point. I’m scared enough with my current state of life that I am willing to start selling clothes, I am willing to start doing private Skype shows again, honestly I’m desperate enough that I’m going to do just about anything except for in person meet ups. Because of the chemotherapy I’m undergoing my immune system is incredibly weak at the moment and if I were to catch a cold from somebody it very well might kill me. I tried to do the camming thing for one night but my camera quality is shitty enough that numerous people told me that it just plain wasn’t worth it, and I honestly agree with them. I have a cell phone but I’m gonna need to factory reset it later this evening if I want any chance of being able to download Skype or anything else that I would need for live chatting with customers… I’ve tried so hard not to use my illness as an excuse to try to suck money from other hard-working individuals but I haven’t been able to go to the strip clubs and dance due to the coronavirus, I was locked out of only fans for weeks and fell behind bills severely during that time, and just.. I am very scared and I need help.Thank you for reading my rant. It’s been along time since I felt heard, it’s been along time since I’ve wanted to speak out in anyway involving money because I didn’t want to be seen as some girl who is just using her own at the coast by in life.I have so much love for each and everyone of you, if you’re someone who can’t afford to help me but you still took the time to read this, then do me a favor and pass along some kindness to a stranger today. Kindness is free and there’s not enough of it in this world. ♡ -- source link