To Lou I can’t believe it’s almost been a year since you were taken away from us
To Lou I can’t believe it’s almost been a year since you were taken away from us. I know we were never close. Never even had a real conversation but Lou, you were and still are one of my idols one of the most amazing paddlers and all round amazing person. You were so kind and caring on and off the river. Your death hit me incredibly hard I don’t know if that was because we had lost another amazing paddler and was close to home or whether it was something that helped push me over the edge with my relationship problems with Danielle. I spiralled into a dark place after your death and resulted in losing Danielle I made many mistakes and my addiction became far too much to handle and I became dependant on a little pill to keep me on my feet and numb my pain from day to day. I’ve recovered from the addiction but still take some every chance I get. It took me along time to get back In the boat after your death but when I did you were always there in my mind with every stroke boof and roll. It helped to think of you watching over us. ———————————————-I’m sat here tonight trying to think of words to write to you for your memorial which I plan of putting in a bottle and sending into the gorges. I’m taking the afternoon off work so I can get a lap In before everyone gets there. I hope you like the flowers I choose. I’ve never been any good with flowers…Anyway. I miss you Lou and I hope you’re shredding the heavenly white stuff up above! Rest easy Lou -- source link
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