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thathighclassbitch:captsiimba:morbidrose:someoneintheshadow446:corn-cuck:jewishmagpie:captsiimba:sjwbullcrap:Part 1 of the messages minutes before I tried to kill myself.Prior to this, I had planned an attempt and I had written him a message saying I was going to do it and that I loved him, which he read and ignored, which killed me and I told him how awful that made me feel. This started from there.You are so….toxic. And guilt tripping. Babe, these messages don’t paint you in a petty light.This is… seriously, OP, you need help and you really do not deserve to feel the way that you do. I’ve been there, I know how horrendous it is. I’ve acted terribly to others before, thinking that I was in the right and that they were abandoning me and not being good enough for me, but the truth was that I was in such a bad place that I constantly lashed out, I was unfair and I needed to apologise. So I did, and that’s really helped my mental state.But the truth is that this is textbook abusive behaviour. You’re both clinging to him and pushing him away. Most people aren’t equipped to be able to deal with others that are suicidal. And telling someone that them not being exactly where they need to be makes you want to hurt yourself is controlling and abusive. The amount of pressure put on him there, especially when it reads like he’s used to this kind of text messaging, it isn’t fair in the slightest.OP, you need to break up with your boyfriend for both of your sakes. You’re unhappy and clearly not in the right mind right now to be in a relationship, and he doesn’t deserve to be treated that way. He clearly has no idea how to handle someone in your situation. How does anyone react in that situation? It’s hard for you, but it’s also hard for those that hear those things. There’s no simple textbook thing to say or do to make others feel better or fix things. And sometimes, when they try their best, to the suicidal person, it sounds like they don’t even mean it – because that’s what the suicidal urges tell you. Depression and suicidal thoughts are terrible and they can make us act in awful ways. It’s an explanation of bad behaviour, but it’s not an excuse.And just because I’ve been there, I can’t and won’t condone this kind of behaviour. So, seriously, I genuinely hope that you’re getting the help that you need OP, but this wasn’t fair. And it may sound harsh, but from my experience, forcing yourself to look at some of the things that you’ve done wrong is a good way to help heal your other issues, because it puts the cruel voices in your head into perspective.im sorry i have to agree with simba, this is fucking toxic to read. Yeah this is… bad. My abuser sent messages almost exactly like this. I am highly bothered by this because I am on both sides. As someone who used to be sent messages like this by people I considered “friends” and someone I had once called a lover, yeah… it does seem manipulative af.HOWEVER, as someone who also suffers from suicidal ideations; let me explain something to you and you all may not like it, and may wholeheartedly disagree with me, but as someone who as attempted a few times in the past? I know what OP is going through.it may seem to be toxic to the people who aren’t going through what OP is going through, but when you’re in that state of mind, you have NO filter and you are just saying what you can because, in your mind, it may be the last time you say ANYTHING. So, yeah, to the person not dealing with that shit and not knowing what was going through OP’s head at the time, it looks manipulative and toxic as hell. but, as someone who HAS gone through what OP went through… it’s really not meant to be. No filter means nothing is sacred when you feel like you want to kill yourself. Emotions are NOT in check and anything that comes to mind, it’s said.@sjwbullcrap I want you to know that I understand how you feel. Perhaps seeing someone could help you along though. It may not be for everyone, but there’s no harm in trying at least.Almost every person who called her out for being abusive and toxic has gone through or is going through the same shit.Being suicidal doesn’t mean it’s okay to be abusiveStop kissing the ass of people who only show one side of everythingThanksI…honestly forgot that the person who screenshot this (OP) was the blue text and the entire time reading this i was just thinking“This is fucked up”“What the actual fuck”“I hope he leaves their ass”“This is incredibly abusive”Without even knowing who this was about. Thought this was another long post that went viral because someone was being abusive towards their partner and guilt tripping them. -- source link
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