What a fucking year, my friends. I’m trying to write the usual cheesy retrospective post,
What a fucking year, my friends. I’m trying to write the usual cheesy retrospective post, but I don’t even know where to start. Do I start with the challenges? With forced isolation, which was terrifying for an extrovert like me? Do I glaze over the constant, low-humming anxiety that filled my (out) year? Or do I go straight for the jugular with the fact that 90% of my work got canceled or postponed, and that with it went my sense of worth and my perceived place in society? Do I mention Balthasar, the kitten we adopted and syringe-fed and cared for, to have him die little after? And how that heightened my anxiety and brought back a bout of depression that had been dormant since my early twenties? Do I mention the stress of Alice’s IBS (who here knew a cat can have IBS? I didn’t!)? Do I mention that until we were all tested on Christmas, I hadn’t hugged my grandmother or my kid sister in months? Do I mention that I saw people I love and people I thought were decent defend fascist and racist ideals? Do I admit, publicly, that I feel like most of us became much worse people in 2020, myself included — even though I was one of those who said, back in March, that we would all get out of this much better? Do I talk about the toxicity of social media and how it’s actually destroying the little humanity we have left — but how I was unable to go a single day without it? Or I could go the saccharine way and talk about how much we have grown this year. We have, it’s true. Not always for the best, but something’s gotta give, right? We had a decent January, and Mel and I still got to go on our interrail and see most of the Berlinale film festival in February, in Berlin. Some of our friends met us there and we had one of my favorite weekends ever. We had a day in Paris on our way back and it was romantic and gorgeous and perfect. We came back just in time to quarantine and we locked ourselves up. (Continues in the comments) (em Porto, Portugal)https://www.instagram.com/p/CJeHPkKsXjz/?igshid=vmu9aoamqca5 -- source link
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