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10moonymhrivertam:10moonymhrivertam:addignisherlock:daisyfairy1:datmycroft:addignisherlock:trained-cormorant:addignisherlock:trained-cormorant:addignisherlock:“Sherlock what happened?”“Piss off Mycroft.”“This is a serious matter, brother mine.”“I fell down the stairs.”“Stop lying.”“…….It’s the anniversary of Mary’s death. And John drank…… a lot. I had to protect Rosie.”“Oh Sherlock….”(x)Addi why are you doing this Actually idk my mind runs rampage in mysterious ways??? And I don’t know how to make this better???? Anyone????John sobering up and being shocked at what he’s done? Maybe putting himself through a residential alcoholic and DV programme. Meanwhile Sherlock puts everything on hold and cares for Rosie?OH and then also john realising that he feels like he’s becoming his father and the internal struggle of that and being overwhelmed by guilt as he goes through the residential alcoholic and dv programme, question is: will anyone want to fic this?I wish this was an AU but after season 4 it kinda isn’t and that fills me with griefIt isn’t quite this but my fic This is Wrong had John attacking Sherlock then getting help with his anger issues.@daisyfairy1 thank you for mentioning your fic!!!I CAN’T BREATHE THAT WAS SO GREATConcepts:Rosie calls him Papa in her head, but has never done it out loud. She’s not quite sure why. (Sherlock freezes and stares at Rosie, no more than two or three. He looks around in terror and then leans in toward her and for a moment she’s afraid. “You can’t -” he says tearfully. “You can’t ever call me that. It’s Sherlock. You can do it, Watson. Sherlock. Your Dad will be home soon, yeah? He doesn’t need to think I have intentions to replace your mother.”)More than once, Rosie has seen the Mysterious Umbrella Man come over to Sherlock’s house. He doesn’t really talk to her but awkwardly pats her head if he has to go by her. (”Why?” “Get out.” “I could make it stop.” “And make me responsible for her mother and father? Get. Out.”)“He said he wouldn’t take her today.” “He was wrong. Rare, I know. Happens, though.” “…Jesus, does he not care at all?” “He just couldn’t make it over today, John. I could, so I’m doing him a favor.” “Yeah, you don’t need to make excuses for him, Greg. I know him, remember?” (She runs into Baker Street to find Sherlock pale as death on the sofa, a large bowl on the floor by one of his hands. Sherlock’s eyes rest on her for only a moment before traveling to her escort. “I’m sick - she doesn’t need to be around germs this strong.” “Sherlock, she goes to preschool. You probably caught it from her. But that doesn’t matter, because today we’re going to learn to make soup, Rosie! How does that sound?”)Sherlock and Rosie’s Dad laugh a lot together. (Sherlock talks about Angelo’s, but never about the Landmark. He talks about when they met, but never actually mentions St. Bart’s itself. He is walking on eggshells. He ignores the voice in his head screaming as it recites information from a chart about cycles of abuse)Rosie gets uneasy around the holiday season. (”Happy Christmas, Watson.” Sherlock gives her a kiss on the forehead - it is the 27th, and they had an amazing day full of presents and hot chocolate. Sherlock tucks her in on the sofa and then goes to the calendar by the kitchen, crossing off the day. It was marked with a little smiley face, as all her visiting days are. She can see on the last day on this page, there is a discreet little ‘x’ over the 31st. There is not also a smiley face over it. Rosie doesn’t like when New Year’s isn’t a smiley-face day. But even when it isn’t, Sherlock invites himself over to Dad’s New Year’s celebrations. Rosie hasn’t yet noticed that he never babysits her the week or two after New Year’s.)I feel so sad for Sherlock in this headcanon and what’s unfortunate is that all of this ISN’T ooc considering how John is in s4… Tbh I think this is a brilliant way to illustrate what an abuse cycle looks like in a relationship. Because it ALWAYS starts with a perfect lovely fairy tale doesn’t it? Like John being lovely and sweet and caring to Sherlock in s2. That’s why it’s so hard to let go….Because you always wish that maybe one day it would go back to those fairy tale days…. But it won’t, it never does. Once things get hard, and they view the other person as their own convenience punching bag, the abuser will always find ways to rationalize their violence. And the emotional trauma and shame felt by the victim will always make them feel convinced that they’re worthless and it’s all their fault, and that their abuser is misunderstood and innocent and kind because the victim is emotionally manipulated to cling on to the good old days because the abuser is constantly making empty promises and occasionally treating them nicely and making the victim feel guilty for identifying as a victim. Coz this, I feel, it’s the dynamic of John and Sherlock at the moment :’( -- source link

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