Well what should I say…my life is killing me rn. Why? Because it’s a mess. A month
Well what should I say…my life is killing me rn. Why? Because it’s a mess. A month ago I wrote this guy and asked for a date. He agreed, we met and well after a while he asked “So you were a girl once?” and I just knew at this point that he wouldn’t consider me bf material anymore and guys what should I say, that just killed me. I understand that the sex thing is important and having a dick is really important for gay guys but fuck that, I have so much more to give. I really hoped that he would like me for who I am and what I have and not reject me for what I don’t have. I was just kinda devastated afterwards, but we just met for an hour and I still wanted to get to know him so I asked for a second date but just as friends. He said that he would like that and I said that he should text me when he’s having some time to spare. I waited a whole month for a new text from him. In the meantime he hugged me for a greeting but never talked to me. He couldn’t look me in my eyes and wasn’t able to do small talk so I got confused and started to kinda ignore him again and he started to stare at me again. Every freakin time we met, so I got hopeful again and just thought that he needed some time. Yesterday he wrote me and asked for a date, I was so freakin happy you can’t imagine, a few hours ago i found out that he has a bf now who’s obviously not me and now I’m depressed again. I just feel like I got rejected becuause I’m not a “real” guy and cause I don’t have a dick and because becoming my bf means maybe facing some struggles… I knew that I would get hurt one day cause of that but I’ve never thought it would happen so soon. The worst thing is that I hate myself for feeling like this. I don’t wanna be hurt because of him but I kinda am, I know why he didn’t chose me…I wouldn’t choose me either.That ended kinda depressing but anyways stay strong, go outside and show yourself in all the freakin colors you have. -- source link
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