sookie-m:My dearest confidant, I’ll never stop dreaming of you. You are love. @sevenheadsOn in
sookie-m:My dearest confidant, I’ll never stop dreaming of you. You are love. @sevenheadsOn instagram he wrote: “I’m often reminded how strong I am. I’m starting to believe it. Unfortunately In my particular case, strength does not cure cancer. It does however allow me to endure more than others. More pain. More suffering. I currently have an experimental treatment option in Texas which looks pretty damn good, painless even, but I need this particularly nasty chemotherapy just to survive well enough to get the treatment. So not really painless. Its currently pumping in my veins as I write this. The more I endure and the more this flesh suit rejects me, the more I loose quality of life. A beautiful friend of mine reminded last night how this is life, and I am "living”. All the violence and love is beautiful. She’s right and I try not to take it for granted. I see all of the amazing souls in my life. The love. The Admiration. I do love life. I’m not depressed, but my particular situation directly effects my QUALITY of life. I have moments when this pain becomes the only thing that matters. Love and light become difficult to see and focus on. I can only focus on the pain. I’m starting to think I might be do this “living” thing poorly. There is that saying “There is no fate but what you make”. Paradoxically, I could go deep into deep conversations about my disbelief in free will, and yet still encourage this line of thought. I do what I can to find the light. We should all do what we can to find the light. And for now I might have enough – but I’m not afraid of death. When my quality of life is distant enough, I will choose to worship death and dismiss this life. And I think that’s living and its violent and beautiful like everything else. I’m at peace with that and I want everyone else to be.“I only know his photography not him as a person but I want to share this text and say RIP too. -- source link
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