Yes I am. But that’s not why I’m posting this. Let’s just start off wi
Yes I am. But that’s not why I’m posting this. Let’s just start off with I’m not depressed. I am just sad. You can believe that or not. Thus is one of those situations where I want to say fuck it. I probably will. Idk. You ever have one of those friends you’ve know for years like double digit years and think you’d be friends forever? Apparently I was wrong. I haven’t said anything because I have been trying to keep the hurt at bay. Then, just this week apparently I lost someone else that I had become attached to. I haven’t known them very long but it still hurts. So I’m over here between pissed and hurt. My emotions aren’t sure what to do. So I guess I’m just going to say fuck it. I’m done. I am awkward and weird and so many other things that make people look at me like I’m a freak so making friends is hard. REALLY hard. I may say thing too bluntly because that’s what slips out before I can think. I’m not trying to be mean or disrespectful. I may be too quiet at times because I’m trying to think of something to say or talk about or I might want to say something but I’m too afraid to say it because I think it will make me look weird and scare the person away. I always tell people I’m crazy, because I am. We all are and if you deny it, you are the craziest of us all. I may be a bit narcissistic, paranoid, scatter-brained, and stubborn. But I am also loyal, funny, honest, protective and I can keep a secret like you couldn’t believe. Well that’s mostly because I forgot about it as soon as I hear them. But what I’m saying is you can trust me. I’m sure I can be toxic at times. Okay, a lot of times. That doesn’t mean I don’t have a heart or I don’t feel things deeply. So if you are new and you decide you want to be in my life, you’ll have to put up with all of my faults. If you dont think you can handle it, I’m not sure you should even start to try to be a friend. I am a very loving person with so much love in my heart to give. To all my friends that do actually talk to me regularly, thanks for not leaving me so far. I really don’t have many of you. To those of you who come along and decide you want to stay, welcome. (at Inside My Head) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cc6Isq1L6ea/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI= -- source link