9️⃣4️⃣ ~ My brain feels like it has superglue in it. Some thoughts of the week: I’m becomi
9️⃣4️⃣ ~ My brain feels like it has superglue in it. Some thoughts of the week: I’m becoming fairly certain that my tolerance for externally-imposed toil is low. I always knew I am not built for dominating most of my existence w/ work/school/similar *pressuring productivity* but even w/ the boundaries/priorities that I’ve had in place for a v long time which, distilled v basically, disallows *work* at night or during meals or on at least 1 full weekend day - trying to saturate all of those allowed hrs w/ that work the last few wks since the semester/my internship/my job started has STILL been making my mental climate v low-charge & anxious. To where I have such a bullshit mentality by afternoon I have to purely will myself to the gym alot of days. I do a very good job at auto-auditing everything I give access to my energy & cut any meaningless stress/don’t-wanna’s as soon as I recognize lack of ROI, but I continually struggle w/ the summative meaningful things I DO want in my life - regulating where the edge is between mostly enjoying my life vs becoming overworked & underjoyed. The way I’m set up, I don’t need to be an “hours person” as @thenattypro worded really well in a recent podcast (the 9 to 5ers or time-block-ers who work for most hrs most days to produce) - my mind is a really powerful engine & can violently produce in bursts, but like those supercharged engines it also can’t sustain that for 40+hrs/wk w/o destroying itself. But even rejecting the lifestyle that “hours people” set as standard (intentionally or unconsciously by not auditing), my drive to progress still makes me feel itchy abt any time spent not driving & leads me to incrementally become an hours person anyway except using all the things I chose to prioritize & I slowly fry out anyway bc fatigue is fatigue even if it’s from something you elected as worthy. Going into next wk my focus will be shifting the gauge back on misc *work* as much as possible while still being effective & not anxious abt feeling behind. The engine needs to coast more. ~ Coach : @nunez3dmj @team3dmj @animalpak : TANYA10 @officialbetterbodies : BB15 @officialgasp : GASP15 @poorboysupplements : T10 (at What) https://www.instagram.com/p/CLSEWOqDr6Q/?igshid=11poy0am1pwly -- source link