krokodilov: been spending most our lives living in the order’s paradise didnt expect for this
krokodilov: been spending most our lives living in the order’s paradise didnt expect for this picture to get (relatively) a lot of engagement and really cool comments, im glad people understand the idea behind it! here are my own thoughts while drawing this picture: over time, sh3 and the conflict between claudia and heather started to really stick with me, more so than sh2 conflicts, the idea of a perfect heaven and existence without any pain is something that i really like and believe is possible but also something that makes me scared of losing the part of self that comes from understanding and experiencing sorrow both directly and via art.like i think all art comes from suffering, either you submit to it and explore its depths or you want to defy it by leaving something joyous for you and people to enjoy. at the same time, i at times abhor the current world and whenever people say they want to live forever im always like “id want to live forever but not on THIS plane of existence” (i call it “meat dimension” myself, unrelated to anything SH) because i think the suffering and pain of it all would drive me insane if i lived too long in it. it would really be just like “timeless existence” the order’s God freed humanity from.i also have some body dysphoria (not related to gender) that comes directly from having an aging and corrupting body that doesn’t reflect my mind and i think drags it down with its bodily desires. i sometimes experience periods of depersonalization where i confront the fact that i truly do not think of my body as “me” and when my mind feels removed from the body to the point of losing some ability to control it i get kind of happy, like “see i told you im not just my body”.anyway, ST’s silent hill is my comfort video game series, no other SH media could capture the feeling of voluntary and even desired detachment from the outside world… the aesthetic of every enemy being shambling mass of meat is very appealing to me, someone who kind of hates physicality and bodies and its like, lol mood. sh3 especially focuses on feminine fears and uncontrollable transformation of the body and being used as a vessel, so, thats why i love the monsters in this game more than in any other and i like Closers especially.tl dr im both Claudia and Heather and im also the Closers and we all meet in a parking lot to have knife fights on weekends -- source link
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