A sad (for me) but good thing happened a couple of days ago.I found in my feed on here a stunningly
A sad (for me) but good thing happened a couple of days ago.I found in my feed on here a stunningly beautiful photograph – a superbly pretty and cute young woman wearing a very loosely-woven (and therefore see-through) top. Spellbound, I could not resist the desire to download the image into my collection.But – since committing a couple of years ago to the pussy-free (and tit-free) existence I know is appropriate to my beta nature – I knew it would be wrong for me for look at the photograph, even though I would take some consolation from knowing it was stored in my collection … even unseen by me.So I created and saved this censored version of the photograph – a version I could allow myself to gaze at in hopeless adoration, gaining the loser’s pleasure of admiring and worshipping such exquisite beauty while being painfully aware at the same time of the shame of being forever denied the sight (let alone the touch and taste) of the intimate parts I crave in vain while real men enjoy that intimacy freely and frequently.But I made a mistake – instead of saving the censored version as a new file, I mistakenly over-wrote the original file with the censored version. So now the original, uncensored version is lost to me. I can gaze pathetically at the black bar version, but will now never again see the beautiful tits beneath it. Not only SHOULD I not see then – now I CANNOT see them, ever.When I realised my mistake, I felt it like a kick in the stomach. Even though I had honestly intended to deny myself ever looking at the uncensored version, the fact that now I genuinely could not do so however much I might want to felt devastating and unfair. But soon I calmed down: no, I told myself, this may have been an accident, but it is correct and appropriate.You know you are a beta male, and you genuinely believe that means you should not look at women’s sexual parts – they are off limits to you, because the women would not want you looking at them, you do not have the right to look at them, and the sexual thoughts you may have while looking at them are grossly inappropriate.So, yes, it is very sad for me that I will never again see the beauty of the tits now hidden forever for me by this hated black bar. But I humbly accept it as correct that I should be permanently denied that pleasure, and being forced into that humble acceptance has been good for me. -- source link