Pictured: A yellow lacy hair bow, gift from the group’s Veronica. A yellow Best Friends bracelet, gi

Pictured: A yellow lacy hair bow, gift from the group’s Veronica. A yellow Best Friends bracelet, gift from the group’s Heather Chandler. And a bright yellow scrunchie, which I found on my own.So, Heather McNamara, who I had the honor of cosplaying last weekend.I adore Heather Mac. I absolutely adore her. She is literally me, and so significant for me personally.I’m autistic, like she might be, and I often struggle with emotions and come at issues from angles like Rules instead of how people are feeling. I often go into little monologues that are very strange but which are meant as sincere compliments, and I tend to blurt out what’s actually on my mind when I feel comfortable.You know, like Mac does during Candy Store - Guys pay the check and help you cheat? Really? Even in that song, that’s a bit on the nose.Like Mac, I’ve been absolutely desperate to be loved and cared for, and like Mac that got me into trouble. Like her, I’ve done some pretty mean things because my friends needed me to, though at heart I’m not that mean. Sassy, yes, but not mean. Like Mac, a couple of times I’ve attached myself to the scariest person I could see in the hope they would protect me, or wound up entangled with someone toxic who I just thought was beautiful.Like Mac, I’ve struggled with suicide - we float in a boat above a raging black ocean. Social isolation, controlling parents, controlling brother, abusive brother, or neglectful parents and an incredibly toxic school environment involving lots of people seeing you only as a fuck toy, the result is similar.Of all the characters in Heathers, Mac is my favorite. Hands down, no questions asked. Because I see the most of me in her, even in her darkest moments - and the stuff she’s done that’s not so good I still see bits of me in.So it was an honor to be her last weekend. It wasn’t just cosplaying at her, so many people recognized the five of us as Heathers + JD that I basically never dropped the character, though we were all a little nicer than our characters actually were.I was beautiful. We made it beautiful. And I can’t describe how it felt looking like hell on wheels with four friends at my back. -- source link

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