orangeshipper:sugarnsoul:catchingbananas1:orangeshipper:sugarnsoul:Don’t go breaking my heart, Matth
orangeshipper:sugarnsoul:catchingbananas1:orangeshipper:sugarnsoul:Don’t go breaking my heart, Matthew/Daniel. Both these shots are just beautiful beyond words and I’m STILL gutted we didn’t see the first in the episode… Though if we had it might well have broken me once and for all.. *sob*In the second one Matthew/Dan is simply beautiful - not handsome (well, that, too) but beautiful. His eyes, his expression, everything is so deep and real and even if you know he’s been tainted by war he still manages to be pure.But the first one - I’m happy the scene ended the way it did, but I’m also in love with the thought he couldn’t bear not to see her one last time. So he stood up and waved at her from the running train…it’s just…it breaks my heart how much he loves her. And he must’ve seen she was crying. Oh God…you guys are so morbid! Although, I actually thought about it the other day. Really thought about it and it never occurred to me that Matthew would die. I mean, logically it was 2.01 and they wouldn’t kill him that quickly. But when I forget about that and think about it in terms of how the characters were actually feeling, my God. It was the last time she could have seen him. He could have died! I guess the impact of that didn’t hit me until I read SIF and went through all those emotions. And thinking about the reality of people actually dying back then. And then I just cried for them like an idiot. *sigh* You’ve opened up a head-canon can of worms for me :PIt’s my utter belief that 2x01 Matthew was convinced he was going to die when he went back to France, and that fear coloured EVERYTHING he does and says in the episode.It’s the first time he’s come to Downton in two YEARS, and he’s just got engaged to Lavinia… I think he decided to go to Downton to see the family, make amends and say his goodbyes to them. To right all those wrongs, in case (as he believes) he won’t come back. And he has to propose to Lavinia, because.. if he dies and there’s no formal attachment, she’s on her own. But if she’s his fiancee, then he can introduce her to his family and if he dies then at least she’ll have them to support her.Ach, and when he’s leaving and Mary says “and then you’ll be in France”, and he replies “Wherever I’m going..” - where else would he be going?! :S To me, he means if he dies. That he’ll be glad they’ve made friends again. GAH.And even down to, when he walks out of Crawley House, and looks around him… it looks as though he’s taking it all in with the belief that he’ll never see it again, and then to go into church… and the “Goodbye, Mary, and God bless you” sounds so FINAL, and his FACE…OH, and the fact that he spent his day taking Lavinia to his favourite places to “give her some memories”, because he doesn’t think they’ll have any more to make together. Oh, MATTHEW.At first I was unsure because I thought why then, why two years into the war does he suddenly feel that way, and not before. But if you consider he’s just been through the Somme… that was by far the worst fighting so far, so it make sense to me that after everything he’d been through already, the horror of that shook him up enough to make it all seem impossible anymore.*sobbing* -- source link