Note: If any of you from 2014 are still here, thank you and please do message me, so we can reflect
Note: If any of you from 2014 are still here, thank you and please do message me, so we can reflect on our our growth for the past six years. I started this blog as a rebellious, introvert, emo college freshman who thought she has seen the worst of the world. I thought my principles then were set in stone and it would be a betrayal to the self I tried so hard to preserve if I deviate from any of it. But I did. I did alter and even disposed of some of them. One of which is the thought that I thrive in pain. This idea takes so much space in my head that even when I don’t actively use it, it’s in the back of my head. When I feel fine, I latch on the next worst thing about my life to wallow in and yield the best results. When my heart is light, I look for a heartbreaking movie. When my jaw aches from all the laughter, I–almost like a reflex–plug in my earphones and listen to my playlist called On Dark Days. I found reasons to be sad.I am now a law student in Manila and even if I have only spent three solid years in law school, I can say that the experience expanded my perspective. Everyday, my drive to get back up from daily failures is tested. I can say that as of writing, no failure made me give up altogether. Along with the years spent are the people I met throughout my stay. I am grateful for all of the words I listened to and merely heard. Every time I learn something new, I always wish I learned of it sooner. But of course, what’s the point in dwelling on regret when time is not something in your hands. It would be a lie to say that I have my shit together because I do not. I fall off the path at times but I manage to raise myself up again. Yesterday, I watched Rappler’s documentary on the Hon. Conchita Carpio-Morales, Conchita. Her words resonated with me when she said,It is disappointing sometimes if what you expect does not come out, but if you give up that easily, you’ll never fulfil what you intend to do.So here I am, reviving this old page where I used to park my dark musings to paint myself as a sad and hopeless chic. I’m doing this because this year I realized that if I can help alleviate the plight of those who have yet to experience what I went through, I would be the person I wish I had for them. I’ll keep this alive.Neri -- source link
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