This year I rejoined the Invader Zim fandom and it was wonderful. I met so many cool and talented pe

This year I rejoined the Invader Zim fandom and it was wonderful. I met so many cool and talented people- some of them who I now call my friends. I was the most productive I’ve ever been in any fandom! I drew so much, came up with so many aus, scenarios, so many fun things!I am grateful that this fandom was here for me in such a dark year. But sadly I have decided to leave it. For all the wonderful things I got to experience here- it’s also been causing me a lot of stress. And I am a very sensitive weak person ngl- so any stressful situation is extremely hard to deal with for me.But still thank you for all the experiences you gave me and shared with me. I had an epic time :’)—The cause of my stress is mostly due to ZaDr. I’m going to be frank- I love this ship. It’s been there for me since I was a 13 year old bullied kid. I saw comfort in it. The fact that both Zim and Dib came from a life of bullying and mockery- but still gave each other meaning. Let’s just say that Invader Zim but specifically ZaDr was one of the things holding me together back then.When I first rejoined the fandom in 2020. I was aware (since 2019?) that this ship is controversial. I tried to stay away from it bc I don’t deal well with conflict. I might have given off the impression that I too saw something wrong with it- because I was too trying to steer away from it. Disassociate myself.But in truth, I saw nothing wrong with it, and I still don’t (you can read about it here), and this is coming from someone who is actually against problematic ships (as they can be harmful and potentially dangerous). I just always felt as if the context was much different here.I might change my mind later in the future though.I just know now that- I can’t change everyone’s mind. And that’s ok. But it still causes me stress to think about it.—There’s also the fact that there’s so many ZaDr artists (mostly on twitter) draw so much art (content from p*dophilia, to in*est to r*pe) that makes me so uncomfortable. They would reblog and retweet my art even when I said I wasn’t comfortable. I was originally scared to speak abt this haa :’) bc the fandom is full of these people.—And also something personal I didn’t add originally- while IZ and while ZADR, are both things that comfort me- in truth. Whenever I think about this show or that ship. I remember being that 13 year old bullied kid. I remember being called slurs, losing friends, being mocked (bc I was a bisexual autistic kid). It having a constant presence in my life- isn’t healthy. I have been gettnng flashbacks..So for the sake of my mental health I decided that I am leaving the fandom.— Also I removed all of my IZ art from my Tumblr. Every time I looked at my blog I would get so emotional over it- so I removed it.If you still wanna look at it tho, here you goThis link includes all of my IZ art including some you may have not seen. -- source link
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