Idk how to express it anymore, I always want to let go but I didn’t really, I end up still crying an
Idk how to express it anymore, I always want to let go but I didn’t really, I end up still crying and caring. Like this is so not me, I didn’t used to be like this, every time I saw her mentioned about you my heart broke into pieces again, but idk why, maybe I just afraid of she will really take you away. I felt bad for myself that I still smile when you talk to me, text me, even when I heard your name or you just appear around me. Idw to be like this, this sounds really suck, a teenager who has problems with love life, that’s funny tho, I used to laugh at them like hey, how serious could it be, you’re still young, and now I became exactly as them, pretending fine in front of people but actually cry when alone, having some accounts that can’t see by most of friends so to post how i felt, the feelings i dislike, think about he is the one, basically since dk when all my status are writing about him, started to call girls who around him as bij, staring on his chathead, get jealous really easily, make afford to take every chances to be with him, talk to him even some tiny things that related to him. I’m just 17 and dw to be like this, I felt so embarrassed and stupid, not savvy to dwelling this long, I once like you so much and I guess also now, I just dk what to do anymore. It’s not really a matter of memories, it’s about my heart ald fell for ya, dump ass. I knew I’m still good like still have faithful friends, families, still have alot to cherish of, I told myself always count my blessing and be humble, but when I think about you, all changed, I felt the sadness I’d never had before, I screwed up everything, I became cynical, no longer a believer anymore, and yeah this is where the part I most refuse of myself, that’s why I want to stop this all. I need help, but I don’t feel like telling people the problems, cebause I felt so stupid, I hope time can flash it all, I really hope so. I’ll be cool again, and he will be a lesson of mine. -- source link