So I noticed, I found beauty in your worse, tend to in love with the whole of you. I accepted the th
So I noticed, I found beauty in your worse, tend to in love with the whole of you. I accepted the things I felt not good enough before, can’t get rid of you, my heart felt like tie up by something when I can’t see you. My heart felt comfortable and released when I talk to you, and yeah, this is how scary I’ve fallen to. I don’t understand, we are not that close anymore, basically we talk way more lesser than we talk to a normal friend, yet I’m still nonstop falling, why? I tried to tell myself all the time, he will not be yours gurl, if you dw the pain just let go. But eventually when I saw you, I’ve lost control, I wanted you so bad. when I know she’s quite close with you and even like you so much too, I’m so helpless, my heartbeat even became weaker, and my mind can’t works. My biggest fear, you’ll be with her, and I felt like it will be. When I was alone with others boy, I don’t like people to think me and him are having something, like I want to let people know we’re nothing more than friend. But when it back to you, I literally hoped people think we have something, I can’t stop myself from showing of you, even you’re not mine. I actually imagined so much about “us”, cuz we are now so unfamiliar. I felt unsafely I fell this deep, when the only hope once gone, all gone together, I wonder if I can handle. I miss too hard when we used to text, I always felt like can I send him a text like nothing happened? I can uncleanly remember, you said you won’t go, you won’t let me down, maybe I was too childish to believe in all these, too dump to like someone, too “ self entertainment” to say all these cuz you didn’t even cared, isn’t it? -- source link