I feel like some days you really like me and other days, we don’t even talk. I feel like I’m waiting
I feel like some days you really like me and other days, we don’t even talk. I feel like I’m waiting for you to fall head over heels for me, and it’s not going to happen, forever. And from time to time I would wake up trying not to stuck in a room that full of you. I thought you’ll be mine someday, what makes me think that, kinda numb. The pain literally goes my whole body, can’t breath properly, this sounds extra but unfortunately it’s real. I really really like you, I don’t even know how to tell how much I like you, I barely know you are the only thing I held this long. Within this 2 years, how much I cried, hello, I can’t even believe I’ll cry tho, how could that happened. You once left so sudden, that hurts me more then I can handle, thinking of why will it became like this every night and still couldn’t figure out the answer, tears accompanied. I couldn’t handle any rejections from you after that, the wound was too deep, too big and too hard to recover. I’ve so passive, told myself don’t find that guy, wait for his text first, but many few times I’d text first, I just miss you so bad. Being so upsad and worrying this 2 years cuz I couldn’t let go how sweet we were, how you said you won’t go, how you made me feels like so be loved and appreciated. I didn’t act like I’m so into you just because I’m so fuckin scare once you know that, all will just stop there, idk what should I do, all I did was praying to God, I’m so dumb, such a great idiot. So now I have finally worn out of it, the fact I most wanted to avoid from it happened, I should know that earlier or i knew that earlier. Since you suffered from your last relationship to you get into another relationship, I’m so mtfk brainless enough to love you, FML! It was a shame, a love that never begins, I’m so broke, I just never hate you like I do right now or i should just hate myself for so blind for 2 years. -- source link