punksweets:black-feather-fiction: lucianalight:valkyrieandstrangeridingaragorn: lucianalight: This s
punksweets:black-feather-fiction: lucianalight:valkyrieandstrangeridingaragorn: lucianalight: This scene breaks my heart every time. Thor is sincere and desperate for Loki to accept, to go back to being the brother Thor always knew. Thor wants him to come home and in his optimist mind everything would go back to normal.For a moment Loki wants to believe him. He looks confused, searching Thor’s face for a trace of lie. Thor doesn’t lie, but that doesn’t mean what he believes is true. Loki has lost his family, his home, his identity. Where were his family when he was lost in the void and the mercy of Thanos? He has no worth for Odin anymore. Odin would not forgive this rebellion and disobedience. Asgard would never accept him as a Jotun. His own family couldn’t, he himself didn’t, how could they? Nothing would ever be like past. He is all alone. He laughs. That bitter insincere laugh, his mask to hide his pain. He doesn’t have a home. Did he ever have it in the first place? Or was it all an illusion?… It’s because it is insincere. Not that Thor doesn’t love Loki, of course he does, but he wants his brother back, the version of the brother he wants so he can spend time with him, so they can go back to living the way they did in the past (Thor is being impossibly selfish here). But was Loki happy then? No. He just didn’t say it, he hid it, he didn’t lash out, he didn’t ask for attention, he was kind of… there. Waiting for his family to ask something of him, waiting to be of service, and they took and took from him and that’s how they wanted it to be.But Loki rebelled, he lashed out, and now everything is wrong. Not because he’s unhappy, not that they’re willing to listen to him and change their ways, no. Now he’s different. Now he’s changed. And they don’t want that so Thor asks him to return, to be the brother he used to be where the rest of the family was happy - and I don’t think Thor realizes that what he’s saying here can basically be summed up in two words “conditional love”: we will love you as long as you are what we want you to be, as long as you fill the role we’ve chosen for you. And if you curve away and stop following the road we paved for you we will blame you instead of looking at ourselves in the mirror and kicking ourselves for building the road in the first place.So of course Loki laughs, it’s confirmation Thor still doesn’t get it. Of course Thor doesn’t get it. He remembers a childhood, a life so different from what Loki experienced. And Thor has never seen or noticed what Loki went through in that life. He never even realized that he himself was unwittingly made life harder for Loki. In Thor’s opinion Loki’s grievances are nothing but imagined slights. And Odin is the wisest king and father. So the problem is Loki. It’s him who should accept his mistakes and come home asking for forgiveness. And Loki knows that and rejects the life in which no one ever understood and accepted him for who he was. Oh man, breaks my heart every time It’s so sad Thor doesn’t even realize how selfish he’s being right here. Loki knows he’s burned way too many bridges to ever go back with any kind of acceptance. So he keeps pushing forward doing terrible things trying to convince himself there’s some kind of light at the end of this dark path. Thor on the other hand wants things to back to “normal” but doesn’t understand how miserable Loki was and why he wouldn’t want to back to that. -- source link