kiwimidnight:You boys are young, black, gay, and poor. This world despises you.You get this disease,
kiwimidnight:You boys are young, black, gay, and poor. This world despises you.You get this disease, you die, they feel relieved that you’re getting what you deserve.And living in a world like that can make you feel desperate for love.Now, if you want to be healthy and do it the healthy way, you can do it like how our community does by forming houses.But it is much faster if you do it in an unhealthy way.And that’s what I did back then when I started in this world in ‘83 or so, when none of us understood this plague.I thought the only way to find love was with my body. So I would go out to a club, get a little drunk,find me a man that would love me for a while. And even in those moments when his arms were around me, I believed he loved me.We didn’t know each other’s names. I just would convince myself that it would feel like that forever.But it didn’t. So I would find another and then another. None of them ever even gave me their name.I would completely debase myself for these men. I just wanted love. I just wanted to be somebody’s precious thing.What girl doesn’t want that? You know? Anyways, that happened a couple of years back, and I stopped drinking and doing that,but by then it was too late. I had let those guys inside of me. Inside my heart, inside my body.I wanted to please them. I wanted to make them feel so good, so I didn’t use any condoms.And now… And now I got AIDS.POSE — 2.2 Worth It -- source link