First off, I’m just going to say this. I haven’t been creeping your blog. I honestly was
First off, I’m just going to say this. I haven’t been creeping your blog. I honestly wasn’t even aware that you were unblocked. Until I got a message and noticed that the conversation between you and I was showing up. Not that I really owe you any explanations. I don’t even use the app anymore, and the mobile website is wonky sometimes. Anyways! So that’s how I saw your post. I think that it’s a classic move of yours to basically put 95% of the blame on me. What you did was EQUALLY as bad as what I did. Yeah, I know I did some fucked up shit. I’m not denying that. However, I haven’t gone around acting innocent in all this or like I didn’t do some major fucked up things. Which you still continue to do… Whenever anyone had asked, I told them the truth about why our relationship didn’t last. That it was both our faults. We both fucked up. We both lied. We both did horrible things to the other. We both said and did things just to get a rise out of the other person AND to hurt them. I am well fucking aware about what I did. And the reasonings behind it. Some of it had to do what what you were saying/doing. And some of it had to do with other things, that had happened in my past. You think everything was a lie? Go ahead. Because, I showed you AND I told you. In more ways than one, exactly what you meant to me. And what our relationship meant to me. But, yeah. Believe what you want to. Lol. And as far as wanting another “taste” of you, I don’t. I don’t want to be with you. I have someone who is incredibly amazing and he makes me feel the way I should have felt, when we were together. Not “comparing” just stating facts. The relationship you and I had, also made me realize what I don’t ever want again. So, yeap. Thank you for that. I was yours, at one point. Obviously haven’t been for some time. And that wasn’t your choice. It was mine. Yes, I know I walked away. And I walked right back, a few times. But, you had your part in pulling me back too. And at the time I wasn’t strong enough to resist it. And that was wrong of me. And I’m well aware of that fact too. I not only hurt him, but, at the time, I had hurt you too. I get it. I do. I apologized to you about it. It IS something I have felt badly about. I don’t dwell on it. I’m doing the best I can in my relationship. And not making the same mistakes I’ve made before. We are open about everything. Had you an I been, things MAY have been different. We’ll never know and that’s fine by me. There’s meant to be mysteries in life. ♀️ I am not this awful, deceitful person that you seem to think I am. (I mean, honestly… You could be talking about yourself too. Lol.) I don’t tell people what they want to hear. I tell people what I feel and how I see things or how things make me feel. Yes, I lied about shit. But, you lied just as badly. So, own up to that. You say that you forgive me for all that stuff? It’s honestly laughable. Because, in the off chance that we ever spoke again. Just on a normal basis, the first chance you got, you’d most likely throw something in my face. Because, that’s what you like to do. Not saying I’m any better, because you push those buttons. I don’t sit here and pine away for you. Which seems to be what you’re thinking I do. Lol. I sometimes miss certain things and aspects of our relationship. But, it wasn’t a good one. For either of us. You were toxic in your way, as I was in mine. But, that doesn’t negate the way I felt, what it meant to me… the dreams I had. Nothing. All of that was true and real. And I honestly don’t care if you don’t believe it. Anyways. I’m not going to drag this out, anymore. I believe I’ve gotten out what I wanted to say. Regardless to your ‘no need to respond.’ So, here it is, for like the millionth time: I loved you, more than you could have possibly ever known. Part of me STILL loves you and always will. And a part of you will ALWAYS be in my heart. I DON’T regret having met you. I DO regret how things turned out. I honestly hope that you are truly happy and you have everything that you want or need, in your life. Take care of yourself and the little men. -- source link