Through the beginning of this year (and the Eclipse portal) I’ve developed a new connection with my
Through the beginning of this year (and the Eclipse portal) I’ve developed a new connection with my integrity, and different relationship with anxiety. . . The impulse to shame myself into getting work done (I.e. I HAVE to do this, or I SHOULD be doing that) is largely absent. I’ve also not been sliding into the phase that follows said shaming, which is remorse + excuses (I.e. I was so tired, I’ve been busy). . . I’d say it occurred like magic, but I’m sure it must be due to years of working on mindset and the subconscious messages I’ve been sending myself through this and other spiritual + energy work. . . That and, if you’ve noticed, the energy of this year is brilliant. It feels steady, rewarding, and benevolent. . . Anxiety, which has been largely absent, has become a guiding force behind an improved work ethic and a greater aptitude to stay in my integrity. . . I think about spending time in some certain way. If anxiety arises, it’s just a simple nudge that means, “that’s not what we need now.” I change my thoughts to the activity that intuitively comes to mind, decide to do it, and anxiety is gone. . . Because I’ve been leaning in and trusting these insights, I’ve been achieving so much more, stayed on task, and felt accomplished and proud. A natural work ethic is returning to me that has been long lost. I’ve always had an excellent work ethic, but at some point I started under cutting myself with self sabotage. The source of motivation has been offset (likely fear-based) for years, and I’m now enjoying the return of divinely inspired intrinsic motivation. . . Through this work ethic and discipline (a word I found to be perplexing for ages), I am also receiving downloads and insights as to what I want to study, write, and read. . . Words are sacred. I’d like to find new ways of worship. Or perhaps… return to the relationship I had with words when I was about 12 years old (more on this later). . . (at Lethbridge, Alberta) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsypjXUHRkN/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nyyun3m6yq0d -- source link