Greetings to my beautiful, wonderful, obedient ukhtis! My sisters in the Sexual Jihad – our ti

Greetings to my beautiful, wonderful, obedient ukhtis! My sisters in the Sexual Jihad – our tiny band of Western “males”, sissies and wanna-be sissies, sissy sluts, boytoys, cocksucking bitches and otherwise who hope, dream, aspire and desire to become the feminized and converted slaves and wives of proud, masculine Muslim Alpha Males. It has been too long since I have written to my ukhtis. I apologize. I have been gone for too long, both because of family commitments and because I for some time lost faith in our enterprise, in our Sexual Jihad. I became depressed. I felt foolish. My dream of becoming the feminized muslimah wife of a proud Arab man is far too specific of a fetish, if I may call it that, meaning no disrespect at all to anyone. A perference perhaps. But I became discouraged because the men I seek to belong to and obey are but a tiny subset and I have never yet found a way to contact them, to make myself available to them. I’ve tried, my ukhtis. Oh, how I have tried. I have signed up for other websites, of sexual nature. All to no avail. And as I re-read my earlier entries from my first days and weeks as Ameera, I felt that my desires were too far-fetched, too impractical, as though I must be doomed to live out the remainder of my days as a disappointed and disappointing male, occasionally sampling illicit sex with another man, never truly feminine, never truly accepted. But I have returned, my ukhtis. I have decided to keep my tumblr and to pursue my dream in the time I have available to me, although never quite to the obsessive levels that I did once before. To truly live, one must after all have hope. Hopes and dreams and wishes. I’ve never doubted that I could become a man’s obedient and feminine wife if given the chance. The truth be told, I’ve read much about Islam and found it so very appealing, spiritually as well as intellectually, although I have yet to be able to reconcile the teachings on homosexuality with my own very obvious and plain desires. I will leave it up to those more knowledgeable than me to give me further, deeper answers. As I’ve said before, I do not consider myself to be converted. I have not performed the necessary steps, and I also feel as though for it to be right and true, I must do this under the direction of a dominant Muslim man, as my guide and mentor. I pledge to you all, my ukhtis, to continue the Sexual Jihad and to continue to look for my dominant Muslim master and husband, the strong Arab man who will claim me and feminize me and make me his, and offer me the hijab as the symbol of my submission to him and to Allah. I thank you all for all your love and support. I love you all so much! I’m sorry to see that some of our sisters are no longer active. I with them every happiness and hope to see them here again in the future. My ukhtis, I love you all! I never could have imagined how things would change once I was swept away by the Sexual Jihad and chose to give up my former tumblr life as just another pathetic faggot. Now I have so much love and so much love to give! May Allah bless you all! xoxoxoxo -- source link

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