Definitely spoke to me in specific friend groups. I’m the one who has to check what i say befo
Definitely spoke to me in specific friend groups. I’m the one who has to check what i say before I open my mouth to make sure I won’t get judgmental looks and crickets, or the eyebrow. I’m the girl that has to watch my tone and proof read my texts to ensure no one thinks I’m stupid or finds some reason to ignore me. I have to prepare myself for no response when I ask questions because 8x out of 10 my thoughts aren’t worth a response. These feelings suck. And at what point is it no longer only my fault for feeling this way? I know I’m insecure, but everyone has control and power to make others feel included, welcomed, or liked for shits sake. I hate females. Anyone who knows me knows I’ve always had a hard time feeling totally comfortable in a group of girls. That shit doesn’t stop after high school or college, don’t fool yourself. But luckily the girls that stress me out make me remember I have friends I DONT have to check myself for, who know me inside and out, who DO think I’m funny and a good time. Those are the relationships that matter. And the coolest part? These people in my life that I love and trust, Katie, Kayti, Rachel, Emily, Cindy, Lexi; they themselves are all so different from one another, and yet they’ve spent time together at random moments and enjoy each other for the same reasons I enjoy them. It’s like instant fun, no one is catty or snippy or judgey. These are the people I cherish, not the girls I have to constantly prove my worth to. End rant, for now. -- source link