missclayton:dinasbracelet:– Anne Carson #and for Jamie to have said ‘I grew up alone I grew up bulli
missclayton:dinasbracelet:– Anne Carson #and for Jamie to have said ‘I grew up alone I grew up bullied I grew up raising someone because my parents couldn’t be bothered’#for her to have said that and to have said that people are so exhaustive that even she herself isn’t worth it#and for all that to be true and still for her to every single time be taking that step toward the next moment with Dani#there will be other nights. want some company? I’ll feel everything for both of us#there is no demand like Peter. there is no expectation#there is only ‘if you want me I am here. for as long as you want. because every day with you is a gift’#and honestly the truest thing about the way they are depicted#is that Jamie isn’t okay either#Jamie is a child of trauma and loss and bitterness#Jamie’s parents didn’t want her. Jamie went and spent her youth picking fights and getting picked up for it#Jamie is not a fan of her own self or anyone else#but she’s such a fan of Dani it doesn’t matter#Dani is braver than anyone suspects. stronger than she gets credit for. carries the weight of guilt and PTSD and mental strain#and if Dani will save everyone else it’s no trouble at all for Jamie to help save Dani right back#living with mental illness in both spouses is a constant game of resting your backs together and leaning until you meet in the middle#I like to think the years they got—good and bad—were equilibrium in that way (via @novelconcepts) -- source link