slut-solutions: There is a part of me that I hide, the part that I can only show when I am in a room
slut-solutions: There is a part of me that I hide, the part that I can only show when I am in a room full of men with my pussy out. I let them use me, fucking my holes like I’m nothing more than a slab of meat. I know that these men don’t love me. They don’t fucking care, but that’s the only kind of affection that I can seem to accept these days. Life has beaten me down and kicked me to the curb. Life has curb-stomped the shit out of me and the only thing that seems to make it better is that feeling of being completely and utterly used by a room full of dicks. Sex is my outlet. Sex is the only thing I have that I can do and feel good about. I know how to take a cock in my ass and another in my pussy. I know how to suck a cock so good that it cums all over my fucking face. I’m confident when it comes to dicks, and I’m confident when it comes to cumming. It’s the rest of life I’m not sure about. I’ve never been able to really make it in the real world. I’m too obsessed with sex. Every person I meet I undress with my eyes. I imagine what they would do to me if we were both naked. Every man I meet is a potential fuck boy and I offer my holes to as many of them as I can. I know I should probably care more about who these men are, but I just let them fuck me without telling them they have to wear a condom. I let them disrespect me however they like. They can fuck me bareback if they want to. They can choke me, slap me and hit me. They can call me names. I don’t care what they do, as long as it isn’t loving me. I can’t take being loved. I can only handle the hurt and the pain. I can handle the slaps and I wear the bruises like badges of honor. Someone cared enough to beat me. Someone was close enough to make me bleed. That’s the only love I can accept. That’s the only type of affection that I can handle. Life has beaten me down for so long that I don’t know any other way to be. So I open my legs and let them all take a turn using me. I let them fuck me two and three at a time and I fucking love it. I fucking crave the abuse. It’s the only form of physical love that I can actually take. I hide this part of me from the world. I walk alone, the memories of how their cocks used me churning endlessly in my memory. I’ve always been this way. I’ll always be this way. I am broken inside and the only thing that seems to soothe the burn of my own self-hatred is the very thing that makes me hate myself. I open my legs and offer myself up to any and all cocks that want to use me. I hate this part, the part where I disrespect myself. What comes next is always worth it. Their cocks using me, fucking my every hole is the only thing I have left. It’s the only version of love that I’ll allow myself to accept. So go ahead, stick your cock in me. Use my holes. You know you want to. I’ll be waiting here with my legs open for you when you’re ready. Gif courtesy of @slappening -- source link