Bi-Weekly report has changed to Weekly Report:Days since my last orgasm: 21Number of edges this wee
Bi-Weekly report has changed to Weekly Report:Days since my last orgasm: 21Number of edges this week: 78 (71 on my pillow, 6 by hand, and 1 using my vibe) Pillow is disgusting and I only sleep on it when I’m not allowed on the bed at night.Number of edges so far this year: 199 (Pillow 143, Hand 46, Vibe 10)Number of orgasms for Master this week: 29 (18 by mouth-hole, 2 in my pussy-hole, and 9 in my shit hole.Number of orgasms for Master this year: 41 (Mouth 25, Pussy 3, and Ass 13)Level of desperation 1-100: 78.9Mind is starting to fog. It’s hard to not make everything around me sexual. A constant tickle between my legs and in my belly. A constant dampness in the entire crotch area. It’s hard not to beg for my orgasm as it is. It’s even harder to offer my orgasms to Him when I’m most desperate only to be called names for it. Not to mention the times He turns me down. I really am in my happy place. I’m craving the most intense and harsh treatments and I’m craving it several times a day. Which takes me to this…..I don’t ‘let’ Him degrade and humiliate me. He simply degrades and humiliates me. I don’t ‘let’ Him use me and discard me. He simply uses and discards. I don’t ‘let’ him call me names. He simply calls me names. I don’t ‘let’ Him piss all over me and make me swallow His piss and cum. He simply pisses on me and allows me to swallow His piss and cum. I don’t ‘let’ him slap and whip me. He simply slaps and whips. I am His. I love Him. And He gives me the world. I give Him the pleasure He greatly deserves. And if sacrificing everything that I am gives Him pleasure, then I will sacrifice. Do I deserve an orgasm? Yeah, probably. Do I want one? Of course! I’m human after all. Do I need one? I’m not really sure. I don’t need one in order to survive. It’s a pleasure. A luxury. It’s not necessary for life. But the real question is this…. Is He worth giving up my pleasure and my luxury? Absolutely!!!! I wish I could give Him more. And I’m extremely lucky that He’s happy with the little that I have to offer Him. -- source link