dustydreamsanddirtyscars:5x11 "Sam, Interrupted"“I’m not real, Dean. I’m in your head. Cause y
dustydreamsanddirtyscars:5x11 "Sam, Interrupted"“I’m not real, Dean. I’m in your head. Cause you are going crazy.”I find it interesting how fast Dean shows the first symptoms in this episode. It happens far earlier than with Sam. For Dean it starts right after Sam is ordered to stay back when Sam has a group therapy thing going on. That’s when he starts hallucinating an attractive doctor, who is basically a personification of his inner voice. Confronting him about his non-existent sleeping patterns, alcoholism, hook-ups and in the end his depression and desperation. And while in the beginning she seems to offer support, in the end she turns on Dean, shows her “true” face. It’s so tragic, because it’s Dean’s mind wrking against himself. Dean is truly his own worst nightmare and enemy.This episode really is endlessly telling about Sam and Dean, because you get more than just a glimpse into their minds and what they are struggling with. And once again - especially the part about Dean not being able to trust his own judgement, perception and reality anymore - to me relates to 10x09 perfectly. Becuse in a similar fashion as Dean is here no longer sure if what he sees is true or a product of his own madness, in 10x09 the lines between nightmare and reality blur together. And the tragic thing here is, Dean saw the wraith, but he didn’t trust his own judgement any longer. He saw the nurses true face, but since all the other faces looked that way as well, he thought none of it was real.And since the wraith only amplifies what is already there, you kind of have to wonder for how long Dean might have been struggling with not knowing what’s real and what’s not and seeing things. It was addressed or alluded to when Dean gave Sam the “stone number one speech”, but I think the issues Dean faces (depression, troubles of perception, hallucinations, etc.) and that are explored here date far further back. ;___; -- source link
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