#Why are you doing this to me? #Can’t deal with it #Ugh- every single aspect of this scene is
#Why are you doing this to me? #Can’t deal with it #Ugh- every single aspect of this scene is the worst and breaks my heart in different ways #This part- Castiel just falling apart and taking his final descent into insanity #as he realizes Balthazar really has turned on him #these little moments of ‘Please just stop this don’t lie to me anymore don’t let this be happening’ #which becomes that hardened and lost 'You really did it- you of all people really did give up on me how could you it’s really over now’ #particularly kills me because it feels like the last chance there was for things to turn out differently #but they didn’t because even now Balthazar didn’t understood the power he held over Cas or what he meant to him #he believed he was the last person who could change anything or make a difference so their last chance just passes them both by -- source link
#cltzr#gross sobbing