Copypaste from my IG: “The pink hair was supposed to be this big step toward adventure, self care an
Copypaste from my IG: “The pink hair was supposed to be this big step toward adventure, self care and independence for me. Then, shortly after, l had my fracture and it all went to shit. Confidence definitely plummeted for a while when I couldn’t do a lot of simple fun things laid up for months, like go to the salon or go try out new clothes. “Fun money” went to wrapping up hospital bills, PT copays… I’m still in pain 5 months out, but the strength levels are great enough to feel more at ease on the train or around stairs. Today I’m back at @dramaticsnyc to reclaim the milestone I started half a year ago. It got so ugly but not because of who I am. Not because of some failing of my person. I’m hoping getting back this facet of normalcy will help me push forward. It my seem simple but simple is what I miss most these days. Thanks for reading.”First pic was 2 days before the Japan accident (bye, cute heels ._.) . As I wrote, it was going to be a summer of taking risks and being all about my self worth. I went pink earlier in the year to sort of cement that promise. And… yeah.Something small and simple, like your favorite snack or getting your room set up a certain way, can be very uplifting sometimes. Don’t belittle it because you think it’s in no way related to your bigger problems. Sometimes it helps restore the feeling that you have control over something in a very bad situation. Finally getting on the train to get to the salon, without a cane or vertigo or panicking , was huge. It’s brought me out of a pretty dark place.Please remember to be kind to yourself, patient & understanding. I spent so much time hating myself over this half year period bc I couldn’t be fully independent, couldn’t wear any of my shoes or certain types of clothes, couldn’t leave my home or keep up with friends, had to manage pain and exhaustion over tiny actions. I knew it would get better, but that knowledge doesn’t always help in the moment. Be hurt, be miserable; but please don’t stay there. You’re important. -- source link
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