here-withoutyoubaby:This honestly just made me break down. Like, I just can’t. And honestly, nothing
here-withoutyoubaby:This honestly just made me break down. Like, I just can’t. And honestly, nothing’s okay, and I don’t think anyone is ever really okay. It just hurts, that’s all, it’s this numb feeling. It’s like you’re in your body but you’re not. And i’m just seeing the things I see, i’m just hearing the things I hear, touching the things I touch, but i’m really not.Nothing’s okay and no one can understand. I don’t even know what’s wrong anymore. Nothing feels right. I hate the dark. I hate laying there at night and just thinking about everything that could’ve happened but didn’t. I think about everything I could’ve done but I was too scared to do, everything I could’ve said but I was too scared to say. And I regret so many things but I know I can’t change them. I can’t even say what’s on my mind because it’s so jumbled and messed up. I’m all over the place and when I actually try to focus my thoughts, it confuses me. It fucks me over. And then it just begins to hurt. And i’m so tired of hurting. I don’t want to hurt anymore. I’m just kind of done with everything.I hate nights. I hate the darkness. It makes me sad to just be alive. But I love you for this message. Because it kind of means the whole world to me.(via imgTumble) -- source link