Surgery rescheduled for May 1st… Blessed Beltane. On Samhain 2015 I cast a spell&hell
Surgery rescheduled for May 1st… Blessed Beltane. On Samhain 2015 I cast a spell… I was quickly losing my ability to walk and was bedridden from extreme crippling pain. My spell was this: “An answer by Yule, a cute by Beltane, and by Samhain be whole and well again.” Only my dumb ass didn’t get specific with the tome frame! Surely enough Dec 21st we got the answer… a cyst of the spinal cord was destroying my sacrum and crushing major nerves. I had surgery the following Ostara (March 21st) and did seem to be cured and getting better. The. All of a sudden I wasn’t. I steadily got worse and worse again and for the past 5 months I’ve been back to square one. Bedridden. Unable to walk. Barely holding it together with the pain. Here I see my spell coming to fruition…. here I see the product of my patience which has not always been a graceful patience. Often I find myself screaming at the universe to fix me before I lose myself entirely to the pain. I’ve learned a lot about myself and my ability and inability to handle this life that’s been handed to me. I know there is an end in sight. Whatever happens, I have to believe in the good things coming!! #spiritualawakening #disabilityawareness #spoonielife #crippled #surgery https://www.instagram.com/p/B9zYfKMneq-/?igshid=1g0xef85vt8cd -- source link
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