9 weeks post op. Crazy. Time goes by too fast, it’s scary. Tired. Haven’t slept over 4.5
9 weeks post op. Crazy. Time goes by too fast, it’s scary. Tired. Haven’t slept over 4.5-5 hours in over 2 months. Numb. Emotionally. My feelings are as cold as my foobs. It’s better than feeing anxious or depressed but at the same time not being able to feel the good. I am still feeling very positive. My memory is gone for some odd reason. I couldn’t remember a week before my surgery that happened and had to ask S if it happened. I’ve noticed a lot of positive cognitive changes since my surgery - I hope it’s permanent. I often wish I was physically numb - Unfortunately not. I’m back go walking on my treadmill for an hour - still not sure if it’s disordered (as I don’t do it to purge calories) or out of wanting my pre surgery stamina back and proving to myself I can still do it. Today’s self care included a caramel vanilla kcup with sugar free French vanilla powder creamer. IT WAS AMAZING. Even more amazing was I let myself drink liquid calories and not feeling guilty. That’s a win for me. #mastectomy #breastcancer #fightlikeagirl #mentalhealth #ednos #anxiety #depression #edwarrior #edrecovery #positivevibes #bopo #bodyposifive #selflovehttps://www.instagram.com/p/BoAewjHFLYJ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1x907s2gohu5x -- source link
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