submissivedreamer:You know what is so crushing about being a single submissive? This picture right
submissivedreamer: You know what is so crushing about being a single submissive? This picture right here. Last night, I was crying just like she is. My eyes were stinging as they filled with tears. My body was shaking, my throat was closing in on me, and I felt as though my shoulders were weighed down by the world. I’ve been taking care of myself for a very long time. I’m capable of handling myself, defending myself when necessary, but it is exhausting. And last night, I had hit a breaking point. I was so tired. Being single means that you don’t have that person to go to at night. You don’t have that person that can re-energize you, that can remind you that you’re smart, beautiful, and loved. You don’t have that person to squeeze you while you cry. All you have is yourself. And when you feel as though your own mind, your own heart, your own body are betraying you, who do you have then? When you cry and there is nobody to hold you and make it better, that is when you have that crushing realization that you really are alone. But when you’ve known that all along, what difference does it make? I have someone, but since I spent so much time alone, I still hide these moments from my Sir. I know he would prefer I didn’t keep them to myself, in fact he always says “you don’t have to be a trooper!”…but it is still hard for me to even face him when I cry…but I completely understand what OP is saying…I have someone there to hold me and make it better…I just can’t bring myself to take advantage of it. :-\ -- source link
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