Okay, here we go. Yesterday, standing there after after a good workout. Feeling good. Currently push
Okay, here we go. Yesterday, standing there after after a good workout. Feeling good. Currently pushing calories in. Standin’ at 126lbs, roughly 57kg, which is a lot for me. Bodyfat, I have no clue as I haven’t got that checked in a while (which just reminds me to book my next assesment). Uncomfortable would be the best word here. I am so out of my comfort zones. First we ran my body fat down just to see how my body reacts to diet, and I was so hungry. Person who has been through anorexia should be like “easy peasy” when dieting but honestly, it wasn’t. It brought so many bad feelings, memories and vibes back. After awhile we started to push calories back in more and more and as it also came clearer where we want to focus on. What are the strong parts and what are weak parts. Clearly focusing a lot to build legs. Uncomfortable. It feels so uncomfortable to eat so much. And it’s hard. Sure, it ain’t easy, everyone knows that. There are days when I feel stuck that nothing happens, I’m just stuck in this form. Then next week I feel good, smashing PR’s and body looks and feels good (or as good as it can because of my crappy lungs). And next week you feel bad again. Lately been noticing that I cannot see the difference in the mirror. But when I pull jeans on,my god, do I notice it. It feels good to fit into jeans perfectly. And when you put your basic t-shirts or hoodies on, they are all getting a bit tight on the shoulders. And next week, you feel bad because your jeans feel uncomfortable on. It’s a uncomfortable rollercoaster. But nothing grows on comfort zone. But yesterday I felt good. And so motivated. Maybe it get’s easier to handle this uncomfy situation. Or maybe not. I am so grateful to have my partner in crime who supports me on this road. He pushes me to better myself, motivates me, but also tells me to rest when I cannot figure it out myself. He shares the joy of cheat meals, gives rubs on my sore legs. Building and working on that physique. One meal and workout at a time. -- source link