Alright, I’m dragging myself out of the depths to post and elaborate on a few things. I ha
Alright, I’m dragging myself out of the depths to post and elaborate on a few things. I have been taking pictures in some capacity since I was 14-16 and I’m nearly 40 now. I even have “selfies” on my Mom’s 35mm film camera ( I think it was a Minolta). I started taking it more seriously in the early 2000’s. I shared them then because it was fun, but I took the C&C way too seriously and from then on I have beaten myself up for every photo I take that isn’t as close to perfect as it possibly can be. That’s rough but it’s become a reflex. I truly take my photos for me. I’m not internally motivated to share them, maybe it’s a combination of factors. Briefly including but not limited to: physical ailments, lack of time , guilt about using that time for something more productive (as much as the boduily issues permit) emotional reasons, and I really really can’t stand editing , especially when it causes me more bodily pains. Whatever the conflagration of causes may be, the impulse to share them is just not enough, even before my issues it was barely enough. I just have very limited motivation to do it unless I’m getting paid lol That’s the damn truth. I tried putting all my eggs into the “pay me” basket and that just demotivated me further because I invested so much time, pain ( in all it’s forms ) and money and got nothing for years. I also generally don’t care for showing off, and I’m not into you comment me–I’ll comment you game. I’m not a fluorescent ball of sunshine either. Acting that way feels insincere. Then any gains are ill-gotten when I apply them to me. Continued in comments https://www.instagram.com/p/B7AGsPagI5y/?igshid=qjjc7cnl39mf -- source link