and-back-to-normal-life:boopifer:eevee-nicks:biglawbear:eevee-nicks:biglawbear:This is so real, hone

and-back-to-normal-life:boopifer:eevee-nicks:biglawbear:eevee-nicks:biglawbear:This is so real, honestly I’m just trying to make it to play Kingdom Hearts IIIYears ago when my PTSD/depression was really bad I always made sure I had some kind of cookie dough or cookie dough mix in the house. And then if it escalated and I got the impulse to kill myself, I’d start baking cookies instead. And then I couldn’t do it because the cookies were baking. And once the whole process of preparing the dough, preheating the oven, baking the cookies, and letting them cool was over usually at least half and hour had passed and my meds had kicked in and I’d be like “well I guess I have to live now because I have freshly baked delicious cookies.” And then I’d just snack on suicide cookies a little bit at a time for the rest of the week and weirdly enough it helped.This is brilliant. I need to do this. I love baking so much. It’s one of my favorite hobbies. I should make a fuckton of cookie dough and freeze it. I also need a recipe for perfect freezable “suicide cookies” because that’s just the perfect dark millennial humor that tickles me. I’m glad you like this idea because I always want to tell people about the concept of “suicide cookies” (or really any kind of physical self harm cookies) but not everyone has my fucked up sense of humor and I worry about offending people by accident.College me was like this with cupcakes. I’d bake cupcakes. All the cupcakes. I’d have so many cupcakes I’d be giving them away, and it was always lovely to see how happy people were when I have them cupcakes, because something nice came out of some of my darkest moments. This is another rare form of “procrastibaking” and I appreciate itI wouldn’t really define myself as suicidal, but there’s been moments, and the baking idea, although amazing, probably wouldn’t work for me, ‘cause I love baking, but it takes a lot of energy from me which I usually don’t have if I’m depressed. One thing I do love doing and never stop doing no matter what’s going on in my life is reading and usually if I get a strong urge to die or stop existing and can just go “yeah, but you gotta finish that story… You can’t die not knowing the end” and there’s always another story, so I guess I can never die -- source link

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