This mercury retrograde was a triiiipppp. . . I felt proud of myself for seeing grace in the mayhem.
This mercury retrograde was a triiiipppp. . . I felt proud of myself for seeing grace in the mayhem. It would have been so easy to focus on the difficulties — and that was my focus of many moments. . . But I didn’t feel like a victim. I felt hurt. I felt wronged. I allowed myself to feel righteous anger and the searing pain of grief. But I did not feel helpless. . . The feeling was one of bravery. Like, “Alright, here we goooo!” Similar to the feeling of going to the dentist. Where I don’t wanna do it but I used the supports available to me (NO2 and hand holding), faced my fears, and had the cavities removed. Better than allowing it fester and turn into a root canal that I cannot ignore. . . This is the essential wisdom and medicine of Mercury’s retrograde. He brings up issues to be reviewed, offers opportunities to deal with them, and helps us to face our fears. We have free will: the choice to act on these difficult opportunities or fester until said issues cannot be ignored. . . These words came to me in the kitchen. I thought, “look for points of Grace in the mayhem.” I thought about how the confrontations could have been more difficult, more drawn out. I thought about the peaceful ignorance I’d been gifted the week before the break down. I was grateful to my experience, courage, and steadfastness that allowed me to protect myself and my son from further harm. I felt grateful for difficult opportunities… . . Through difficult opportunities we are granted FREEDOM. . . I choose Freedom. Again and again. https://www.instagram.com/graceunfoldingwithcaitlin/p/BvpL_9oH2Tk/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1q2j6jw2lzaqw -- source link
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