cheesy-kitten-liveblogs: The statement about doing everything for Rose...Again, this is one of those
cheesy-kitten-liveblogs: The statement about doing everything for Rose...Again, this is one of those things I don’t want to judge Pearl for. Because she lost someone she loved dearly, and who seemed to love her back. Of course she would feel like her whole world turned upside down when that happened. And even before her death, obviously Rose was with Greg and had a child with him. That’s another layer there. But she never stopped loving Rose, clearly. This could be one way she’s expressing extreme grief. I do want to share why I worry about this, though. Pearl has so much devotion to Rose, that it seems to have impacted how she feels about herself. Not that just she forgets about her own self-worth, but that her self-worth is all about needing Rose to perceive her a certain way. Even now! Rose is gone. Rose can’t say how she feels about Pearl. Leave aside the possibility of her still being around in Steven’s Gem or something. But Pearl is still sitting here worrying about it. I don’t know if Pearl has other issues going on that make her so concerned about this, or if Rose didn’t make her feel loved enough, or something else in between, or what. It’s not something that’s going to go away overnight, but needs to be recognized, I think. Because it also contributes to some harmful actions against others, that I don’t think Pearl wants to be doing. And it makes Pearl miserable. Despite the shitshow in the house, Pearl has a family right here, right now, who love her. Pearl sounds disappointed in herself, but they don’t see her as a disappointment. They might get mad, but they don’t care that she’s a mess. She’s Pearl, they love her no matter what. At least, I think they do. It’s really hard, and I feel so badly for Pearl… when she is ready to move on (and I think she will need to start doing so, to be healthier and happier), they will be there for her. Rose is gone, yes, but Pearl is still here… and Pearl is worthy of love NOW. Not when she’s “better” or “perfect” or has earned it or whatever else. Even if Rose isn’t around to confide in her. The other worrying thing here is the way Pearl talks about Rose to Steven. In more ways than one… but like, somehow it feels like it reinforces this idea of Steven needing to be like Rose?? Or that he already is? This idea that she kept so many secrets and that it’s SO great that Pearl was the only one entrusted with them all. And gosh, earlier, with emphasizing how he never knew Rose… but now, it’s “I wonder if Rose can see me through YOUR eyes”. -- source link
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