herdirtylittleheart: In Hindsight… Years ago I purged all of the silly childish clothes from
herdirtylittleheart: In Hindsight… Years ago I purged all of the silly childish clothes from my closet… I was a grown up now with a professional job, a serious one, I was a homeowner, I had real responsibilities. My wardrobe should reflect that, I thought. I misunderstood my inclinations. I thought I was just holding on to my silly teenaged raver days where anything childish was what I indulged. I thought it was just a phase. But all of these years later and my eye is still drawn to these things, these Little things. And they are slowly creeping back into my closet. Now I know that it’s part of who I am, it’s part of my sexuality and my charm. I know this because I squee’d “I wanna hoodie with ears!!!” while walking by a kids store. I know this because I bought Paul Frank panties in kids size 12 (pictured) knowing they would fit me and they’re my favourites. I know this because pigtails feel right. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with holding onto that space where you can play and be free and feel safe. Especially if you didn’t do that enough when you really were a little girl. I look at pictures of myself when I was a kid and I look so seeeeeerious all the time. I just want to put that girl in pigtails and give her some bubbles and send her outside to frolic. (But I wouldn’t have frolicked, I would have taken care of my siblings, and fretted about my cold hands and given passing strangers anxious looks…) If I could go back in time and give wee Heart advice I would tell her to relax… that there would be plenty of time to be perfect and grown up later. But I can’t. So I make sure to give grown up Heart plenty of time to be silly and Little now. This really spoke to me, except I never wanted to grow up. And now that I am (and have been for some time), I realize even more how precious those moments were, and how much I wish I could have them back.Like Miss Heart, I must simply do my best to indulge that childlike charm that I embody so well.I want a hoodie with ears, too. Or maybe one of those fuzzy hats with the long “scarf” ends that turn into paw gloves at the end.Finally, Miss Heart looks so cute in her little panties, doesn’t she? -- source link