portraits-of-america: “My parents have been divorced since I was a baby—too young to remember th
portraits-of-america: “My parents have been divorced since I was a baby—too young to remember them ever being together. I think that’s created in me a lot of fear and anxiety about relationships. The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do is share my life with somebody. At times, I’ve felt that I can’t ever have a committed relationship because I get too jealous or too angry or too anxious, or I start seeing the not-so-great sides of the other person, and then I forget that I’m not perfect either. Maybe I can’t look outside of myself enough or I’m incapable of unconditional love. It’s easy when things don’t go your way to say, ‘I don’t need this in my life’ instead of looking for a compromise and a solution. “My boyfriend and I actually broke up for a while because things just got to be too much and I couldn’t do it. A close friend of mine told him, ‘That’s kinda what she does. Two years, and then…she just bails.’ I thought, Yep, that’s me. It’s a scary thought, but maybe I’m not meant for relationships. I’ve even told him that. But he’s very understanding, and patient, and loving. He’s awesome.” -- source link