I wonder. I’ve slowed down, you know. I could have gone to HNL so easily to be wit
I wonder. I’ve slowed down, you know. I could have gone to HNL so easily to be with him, I’d blocked the days out and nothing stood in My way except my distaste for his - what? Misogyny? Racism? I’d like to say those were the stumbling blocks, but I was overlooking that for the past few years because he was such a magnificent lover, such a tragically flawed beast of a man, and he had such a wonderful laugh. I melted when he called Me “baby.” No, it wasn’t those attitudes.It was his homophobia. Different remarks he made that made it crystal clear he considered LGBTQ folks inherently inferior, unworthy of having equal rights with the rest of us. I can’t stomach that any more. Not in this era of violent acts against members of that community. And of course the anti-women and anti-anyone but a white person comments were coals on the fire. Coals saturated with lighter fluid.And I could have gone to SYD afterward, because I did get the days off. My calendar was cleared. We’d be touring the Opera House right now, sitting down for a nice meal with drinks and then going back to the hotel for some torrid lovemaking if it weren’t for the fact that he’s still very much involved with the Brazilian Bombshell. I don’t want to live in fear that the financial ruin he’s in is going to be paired with a health disaster, because sooner or later, his luck is going to run out and he’s going to catch something from that woman. His absence from South America has left her free to pursue other lovers, and one or more of them is going to be a wild card that could give all her partners some very unfun disease. No thank you. Besides, with his rather healthy sexual appetite and the young women who sniff around him thinking he is still solvent, I could never trust he wasn’t banging someone who had something that he’d pass on to me.I think I’ve gotten over him. Yep.The sad part is that I don’t think he’s going to notice. -- source link
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