inferior-cunt:At the start I’m so defiant, so determined to take the pain. I won&rsquo
inferior-cunt: At the start I’m so defiant, so determined to take the pain. I won’t let him break me, I’m not going to cry this time. I refuse to beg, I’m going to take this. That look of defiance, my eyes fierce and ready for battle, he says it makes him so hard. He knows it’ll be long gone soon, even if I don’t. “Ok cunt, tell me what you are”. I look him straight in the eyes, sigh and start… “I’m worthless” “I’m nothing” “I’m a whore” “I’m pathetic” I pause in between each one, letting it sink in. Letting the shame and self hatred wash over me. It’s right about now that I realise I’m getting really wet and the pain is starting to dull. Wait, no, I wasn’t giving in this time, I don’t want this, why is this turning me on so much. But I do, I really do, I want it switched off, I want to give in, I want it all to go away. “Keep talking, you know you’ll get there soon”, I tell myself, “you know how good it feels, stop caring, feel it, embrace each word, believe them”. “I’m ugly” “Fat” “Useless” “Disgusting” “I’m just a toy” “I only deserve to be used. To hurt” “I’m trash” “A stupid piece of shit” “I’m nothing” “Nothing” “Not good enough. This is what I deserve. This is what I am” “I’m worthless” “I mean nothing to you” “I’m not enough, I’ll never be enough, you’ll never love me, nobody will ever love me” My voice is breaking, I’m not aware of it but my hips are lifting, the muscles in my cunt contracting in an attempt to give some relief. I can’t even feel the clamp anymore, it’s a dull pain, I know it’s there but I can’t feel it, just this need to orgasm. My legs are shaking, thighs rubbing against each other, I’m desperate, I’m so close, just a tiny bit more and I can do it… just a little… I look at you again, my eyes are filled with defeat, empty, self loathing burning through me. “Oh fuck, I’m shit, I’m fucking shit. I’m nothing, I’m a whore, I’m ugly, I’m useless, worthless, a toy, I deserve this, I deserve nothing, please, oh god please, nobody will ever love me, fuck please”. The words can’t come out fast enough, I’m not thinking anymore, they’re coming from my mouth but I’m not in control of it. “I fucking hate myself”. Those last four words, they’re filled with pain. They linger, they hit me. My whole body has started shaking, my hips are bucking “I’m a fucking worthless piece of shit, I’m nothing, I know that… I know you don’t care, I know you don’t want me. Fuck please, oh god please, please can I cum, fuck”. “Cum”. My whole world explodes, my hips are in the air, every muscle I have is tensed, everything is shaking. I hold myself up and feel it all release, everything floating out of me, all I can feel is bliss. I collapse into the bed and at this point I’m convulsing. I roll over and let my legs rub together, shifting the clamp, stimulating myself with more pain, I need to keep going, it can’t stop now. I need to touch myself, the pain isn’t enough anymore, I need something, I need him. I roll back to him, little moans as the pain from the clamp starts kicking back in. He removes it fast and silent, I groan and clutch my aching clit, feeling just how wet I am. I close my eyes, lie back and rub myself, begging him to take me, to use me like his toy. ***True story… orgasms from pure pain are so powerful, I wasn’t really able to describe it. Oh and yeah, there’s a picture of my clit with a clamp on it *blush* If anybody does bother to reblog I would prefer if you didn’t remove my caption please =) -- source link