I have always struggled as the “fat kid”. My search for happiness led me to food

I have always struggled as the “fat kid”. My search for happiness led me to food and I still couldn’t find it. One of the greatest lies we tell ourselves is that our happiness is conditional: “If I get that promotion at work, I’ll feel fulfilled and finally have happiness!” “My life would be complete if only she loved me back!” “If I lost weight, I’d be happy.” When I was a kid, I used to tell myself this lie every day. I felt incomplete, and different for feeling so much. I felt like my sensitive heart had a hole in it waiting to be filled. I tried filling it with religion, love, lust, friendships but these proved fleeting when the person or support system would go away. I filled it with addictive behaviors: video games and other obsessions but mostly I just filled the holes and numbed the pain with the greatest distraction that was always around: food. Feeling sad? Grab some ice cream. Want to celebrate? Grab pizza! Bored? Put on a movie and grab some popcorn. Angry? Get some Doritos. That’ll fix it. I believed I was broken and missing something so I kept looking until one day I came face to face with reality and a blank tennis ball and I knew the truth for the first time: “I didn’t need anything to be happy or healthy. I had everything I needed and the time to live the life I was born to live had come.” I stopped looking for perfection and focused on practice. I stopped using food to bandage wounds and started really healing. I stopped blaming and pining and feeling not good enough. I didn’t become better losing 250 pounds. I became the man I’d been the whole time. (quote by e.e. cummings) -- source link

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