sadisticwhitedom: littlefeministbitch: manisking: loveandaggression:After all these years
sadisticwhitedom: littlefeministbitch: manisking: loveandaggression: After all these years of therapy, her need to be abused is still stronger than her wish to heal. She no longer has the power to fight it. For her, offering her fuckholes to anyone willing to hurt her is the only way to temporarily stop feeling like a useless waste of space. She won’t stop degrading herself until she makes them feel the same contempt for her that she feels every second of every day, until she is sure that when they call her a worthless piece of fuckmeat, they genuinely mean it. Her therapist was proud of himself. He had done a good job. Being helped to realize what I am was a more effective treatment for depression than my therapy ever was. I didn’t feel valuable, but that’s because I was trying to be valued as a person. I’m much more valuable as a fucktoy than I ever could be trying to be a person. You’re not a person. You’re a piece of fucking meat. You’d be lucky to be described as an object, cunt. I know. That’s why giving up on trying to be a person was such a relief. You can never succeed when you’re trying to be something you’re not, and you can never have value as something you’re not. Now all I’m trying to be is a better set of fuckholes that men might find useful for a little while. That’s all the value I have. -- source link