demonrevolutionary: #today i was thinking about the start of bella’s narrative and getting emo
demonrevolutionary: #today i was thinking about the start of bella’s narrative and getting emotional like one does #because here’s this girl #shy lonely anxious largely bereft of self-esteem #but also sharp perceptive observant tough stubborn committed to what she knows is the truth #full of self-doubt and determination at once #and here she ends up in this small rainy town that symbolizes everything she doesn’t want for herself #it’s empty and slow and quiet and stagnant #it’s what split up her family and what she was probably taught not to stand in certain ways as she grew up #it’s the last place she wants to be because it reminds her too much of the things she doesn’t like about herself #‘i’m boring. i’m nobody. i’ll never be special or amazing. i’m worthless.’ #and then she finds out about the monsters #she finds out that there’s a world full of mysteries and danger and adventure #and if she chooses it it’ll make her heart race and her adrenaline spike #and most importantly of all #it will give her the chance to do things and to go places she never dreamed of or thought possible #she never saw herself as capable of being strong or getting the things she desired #but now there’s this opportunity full of darkness and teeth and she /wants it/ so viciously and with everything in her #bella saw her way out and she took it #my forever girl (glitterandgrit) -- source link