femmematisse: The ending to my newest substack article “The [May] Episode”. The [Ma

femmematisse: The ending to my newest substack article “The [May] Episode”. The [May] Episode is the first instalment of my monthly rundown where I just talk about my month for 3000 words. If you would like to have my writing sent straight to your inbox you can subscribe to it here. In this instalment I am focusing on attention, devotion, the things we love and how we love them. [Image description:A screenshot of three paragraphs, with orange lines underlining parts of the text. The text reads: I spent some time today thinking about his face, which I have not seen in person in almost a year. I found myself mentally cupping his face in my hands and it struck me that I will never do that again. He will only ever be a stranger to me from here on out. The fibres of my heart are being cut into by a blunt razor blade: the separation is slow and peeling. It unfurls like a peony. Every time I think I am finished with my grief there he is, waiting in my head to be said goodbye to again.I believe a big part of maturing into yourself is understanding that you must stand behind the choices you make, and I do. Every choice I make to love, I stand behind. Every choice I make to leave, I stand behind— even in my hurt, even if it feels as though the grief only gets deeper and more profound. Looking into the future will naturally have grief accompanying it. If new-ness is a mother, grief is a child hiding behind her legs. Saying hello to the new is also saying goodbye to the old. End ID]  -- source link
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