With the 2nd Christmas approaching and then what would have been his 33rd birthday in January I miss
With the 2nd Christmas approaching and then what would have been his 33rd birthday in January I miss him so much. Some days I see him in strangers everywhere and other days I see things that remind me of him like Redbirds , feathers and pennies. I truly believe that death just like a birth, a graduation,a marriage, or a divorce creates a timeline in a persons life. Everything before Treys sudden passing is now a memory and after his passing is not simply The After it’s a timeline filled with wish’s, if only’s and if I just had more time, if I had only know. But that’s my point we don’t get warnings of sorts, maybe if someone has a terminal illness there is that time to prepare but with Trey’s sudden passing we had no warning, he wasn’t sick, we had plans, he had plans until we didn’t, he didn’t. All gone in a minute in the middle of a Global Pandemic God called him home. So my After looks nothing like my Before. Grief changes people it creates a darkness, a sadness that if you arnt careful will dominate your life. I miss Trey every second of every day and would give anything for one more second with him. I know he wouldn’t want my life to be filled with darkness and sadness but he would want me to live. So I try and some days I want to pull the covers up over my head and just sleep so I don’t have to face a day without him. Lately I try to at the beginning of my day talk to him and I feel his presence with me all day. I put one foot in front of the other and make it through another minute, another hour and finally another day. When I do see things that remind me of him I smile and thank God for allowing Trey to always send me reminders he is ever present. So for now my After is just that After and that After is my new life…#grief #mother #son #brother #husband #family #tragedy (at Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CXgOksihhzz/?utm_medium=tumblr -- source link
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