Daily Picture Assignment #141 Happy hour outfit from this week. I can’t get into any sort
Daily Picture Assignment #141 Happy hour outfit from this week. I can’t get into any sort of headspace lately. I don’t want to be obedient. I don’t want to be talked down to. I don’t want to have mean things said to me. I don’t even want to be hurt. I miss wanting those things, and more. Sometimes I have momentary urges and thoughts. For example, yesterday I accidentally got trapped in the apartment so I worked from home. I was writing some things for tumblr and had the idea that I would kneel by the door and greet Reaction Junkie there when he got home, and that I wouldn’t look him in the eyes and I’d be obedient and all meek and subby. But I didn’t. I’m going to start acting on those urges more. I’m also going to put forth a sincere effort to write more captiony things for tumblr, and I’m going to talk to my partners about having more text-based conversations about the play we do and as a lead-up to the play. Headspace foreplay, if you will..I might even ask them to give me little assignments if I’m having trouble picking something to caption, like telling me to focus on obedience or being a fucktoy or a good painslut or even consensual misogyny. When I write about it, I start to feel in the mood. I think it’s because it’s easier for me to “fake it” over text than in person. For instance, I feel silly talking about being someone’s slut in person when I’m just not feeling it, and I get uncomfortable and can’t get into the flow. I may feel silly writing in that voice, but it doesn’t produce any negative feelings. Plus, when I’m doing it via text, I have time to think and rewrite, which I especially need when I’m not in the right headspace. Then, once I start writing, I actually do start to feel in the mood and can even get into that headspace. Fake it ‘til you make it actually does work sometimes. -- source link
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